We had our first craft fair yesterday. It was exhausting and long, and we put a lot of work and money into it. In the end we passed out over 100 forms of advertisement, and made one little sale. We really weren’t there to sell, so that’s ok. We got lots of great feedback, and now I’m just waiting to see if any emails come in. They’d have to right?
Today I have to work from 1-5 at my part-time job, and then of course tomorrow i work 6-2:30 and the 4-8. I’m a little overwhelmed to say the least. I just feel sad and tired. I also just got paid on Friday and am broke. I’m trying to put all the money I can into savings, but it just feels like we every month we have to pull it back out to pay some stupid bill. I feel like I work all the time, and I don’t spend any money, and I’m still completely drowning. I don’t know what to do.
And my real full-time job is awful. I feel like crying most days that I am there. It’s so bad, so mindless, so frustrating.
And I know why we are doing this. I know that if I ever want to be back in Washington that this is what I have to do. And it WILL be worth it. Just the thought of another stupid Holiday season coming up where I am stuck here while my family all gets together and enjoys each others company breaks my heart. I don’t even want to celebrate christmas this year. We really do not have any money to be buying gifts, and we really do NOT need anything in return. I’d rather just pretend it wasn’t Christmas like I did the first year I was here.
I was actually looking through some friends photos on Facebook. They had a bunch of pictures on fun vacations, Europe, New York, mexico, places both Mr. Gaunt and I would like to go. And I realized that the two of us have never really gotten to take a REAL vacation. We always go back to Washington, which is wonderful, but not really a real vacation. And I’m so excited to finally be home and to feel like I’m not wasting precious family time if I go somewhere else. I so want to travel with Mr. Gaunt, he has been so few places. I really wish that we could go on a honeymoon, even if it was a little ways after the wedding. Maybe New York for Christmas or something. It will all depend on money and jobs.
Speaking of jobs. Mr. Gaunt is going to transfer his job to Washington, but for a few reasons, some controlled by me, some not, I will not be able to transfer my job. This is 100% fine with me. I would rather live in a studio apartment than work that job any longer. Mr. Gaunt is planning on going to Nursing school in the Winter of 2011, and maybe taking some pre-reqs before that. I’m not exactly sure what I will be doing. My mom has talked about some possible options for work, and I really do plan to pursue the paintings more. If we move to Bellingham we have a studio space that we can use to store and even sell our paintings out of.
It’s all still a bit up in the air, and I just have to remember that my weekends being cut short and my bank account being empty will all be worth it in the end. Being home again.
I leave you with a pretty adorable video made about my home town. I pretty much wanna cry every time I watch.