Grilled Cheese and Tomato Soup

The cold weather seems to be holding strong still, and I’m just about over it. Laying in the sun sounds so nice right now. We are expected to get snow tonight through Sunday, ugh. Luckily I’ve been working overtime so I will probably only have a 4 hour shift on Friday, get home before the snow gets bad.

Today is day two of no eating past 6 pm. It’s definately something I’m going to have to get use to because usually we eat around 7:30 or 8. Tonight I almost forgot until I looked at the clock and it said 4:55 pm! Eek I only had an hour to eat so Mr. Gaunt and I went the easy route and had Grilled Cheese and Tomato Soup with a big salad. The soup and sandwich are pretty basic (we use I Cant Believe It’s Not Butter, Low Calorie Whole Wheat bread, and low-fat cheese). The salad on the other hand is a bag salad from Costco that comes with a little packet of Blue Cheese Crumbles, Almond Slivers, and Dried Cherries. It is soooo yummy! I LOVE dried cherries! The lettuce is good too to use on all kinds of things. We are big fans.

Anyway we are now on season two of Everest: Beyond The Limit…umm.. addicting much?

Another Shitty Week.

waiting for summer

Oh yeah, I didn’t go to weigh-in!

Yeah thats because I’m a loser (and not in a good way) in fact I’m more of a gainer! Crap! No matter how many time I remind myself I always let “Fake Weight Loss” superficially please me. Oh what’s “Fake Weight Loss” you ask? Well basically its a term I made up all on my own, but it’s when you lose weight in a unatural way (natural being basic calories in calories out). There can be many things that cause “Fake Weight Loss” like:

-Abnormally extreme workouts, like climbing a mountain.

-Being stuck somewhere where you can’t eat for a very long time, like out at sea

-Giving Birth…ha!


-Excessive sweating

Or in my case last week, being sick for an entire weekend and chosing to sleep rather than eat. See although I was thrilled to drop 2lbs in a weekend, I should have known it wouldn’t last. Thats the thing about “Fake Weight Loss” it doesn’t last, it always comes back. Lame.

Anyways my “Fake Weight Loss” came back and I’m sitting uncomfortably at least 2lbs higher than last week. Therefore I took the easy way out and skipped my weigh in. I feel really shitty about it, but I just need to get back on track. The bad thing is, I have ZERO motivation. I keep telling myself to go to the gym, to stop eating salt, to not come home from work and sit on my ass for the rest of the night. None of it works.

I was feeling really blue yesterday about my weight, seeing a higher number than I’d seen in a while. Then I was talking to a coworker who told me that Blue Monday the most depressing day of the year had just happened, therefore I’m blaming this lull on the tail ends of that. January just kind of sucks. I’m also soooo done with winter! I’m so sick of the short days and how it’s too cold to be outside. Bleh! I can’t wait until I can go swimming in my pool every day after work, and Mr. Gaunt and I can go for walks and paddle boat! We are even thinking about riding bikes this summer!

So at this point I don’t know how to get my shit together. I really wanted to lose my 75lbs awhile ago, but if I don’t hit it by the end of January I’m gonna cry. Seriously. This has been my worst month yet. Alright I’m off to bed so maybe I wont be quite so tired tomorrow. Let me know if you have any good motivational tips, I could use them.

Im not Dead…just rashy.

I guess its been a few days since I posted. I skipped weigh-in this week for a few reasons, but the number one being its in the negatives temperature wise and its takes a LOT to get me out of the house. No way was I gonna pile on the layers to go weigh in…bleh. Which is pretty lame of me, but I dont care. I will be going on Monday night this week dont worry.

Ah so the freezing weather is really getting to me, as much as I hate blazing hot weather, I hate this even more! It burns your skin when you go outside, it makes things like walking to the mail box, eating lunch in your car, hell getting up in the morning very difficult. It means we have to close all of our blinds and add extra bedding. Poor Hula loves to sit in the window but can’t with the blinds closed.  It also means that I have developed huge scabby dry patches all over my body! Then today after lunch I went to the bathroom and noticed a red rash had broken out all over my legs! I kind of freaked out and told my supervisor (in tears) that I needed to go home. I put on lots of lotion and washed my bedding and took a Benadryl. Things seem to be looking better, but Im blaming the weather!

I also am very irritated by the short days! It makes me want to crawl in bed at 8 and do nothing! Like right now its 6:15 and I feel like it’s too late to do anything else. Oh and this damn weather has also made poor Hula a giant static ball! You pet her and you get shocked! You can hear the static whenever she rolls around on the couch…crakle crakle crackle.  Needless to say spring can come any time!

Christmas is also just around the corner (two weeks from tomorrow) and I could kind of give a shit. I dont get to go home this year and see my family, and none of them are coming to see me. I dont want to bake (for obvious reasons) which I love to do at the holidays. Money is tight right now so there is no giant pile of presents under the tree. Can I get a Bah Hum Bug? No, for real Im trying to get in the spirit, but I have a feeling Christmas may come and go without me really noticing.  I did make out all of our Christmas cards (a tradition I actually find important to give and receive) last night and plan to mail them tomorrow after work. Mr. Gaunt is away for the evening too so I will probably get all of his gifts wrapped and stuck under the tree.

Oh I watched the season finale of Biggest Loser last night on DVR. HOLY COW! Was that not insane? I couldnt believe how they looked! Both Rudy and Danny just looked killer! And Amanda looked pretty good too.  The only thing that I find a little disturbing was Rebecca (who’s starting weight was 279) at 5’6″ weighed in last night at 140lbs. When they did her Jay Leno update a few weeks ago I believe she was at 160 and she looked AMAZING! Last night however she looked a little too thin. Also Tracey who had dropped about 50% of her starting weight looked a little this as well. Im sure both women are very healthy, and congrats to them for getting it all off, I just hope they find a happy weight that they can maintain. It also showed me the I do NOT want to weigh 140lbs (which for my height at 5’7 with a larger frame is about the lowest I would go) but rather would feel very good at 150-160lbs.

Ok onto something I have been debating a for a while now. As you probably have noticed I have yet to actually say how much I weigh on this blog. I talk about how much I have lost/want to lose, but not how much I actually weigh. I have been carefull not to share %loss as well because I know y’all arent stupid and you could easily do the math. At this point there are two people who actually know my current weight (and what I started at) that it Mr. Gaunt and Pro. Telling both of them was also pretty difficult, but I felt if I wanted their support then they really needed to know all the facts. And of course they were both very loving and supportive and made me feel like it wasnt a big deal…although to me…it was. Now on to my dilemma: Basically I had decided awhile back that I really DO want to share with you what I weigh, and I want to not be superficial and I want to show you that the number doesnt really matter. I told myself that on January 1st 2010 I would finally tell you all what I weighed, what size I wear, what my current measurements are, what I started at…the works. It just makes me nervous. There are a lot of people who read this blog that dont leave comments. Lost of old highschool friends and family members. Men, women, coworkers. Do I really want all of these people to know? And what are they gonna say? “Holy shit she was the size of a house!”? I hate that! I dont want to feel like people are judging me. I dont want them to think of me differently…will they? Will you?

I dont know. Im still building up the guts to do this, we will see. At this point I am so proud of how far I have come thats its not about you knowing what I weigh today, its just about where I let myself get….ugg. Ok so words of encouragement would be great!

Ok Im off to the store and then home to eat chilli! Oh and I swear Im going to do some cooking this week, weve just been doing boring things. The following are on the Menu though:

-Weight Watchers Veggie Lasagna

-Mango-licous Tilapia

-Chicken Sausage Jambalaya

14 Degrees and Soup!

It is soooo cold out right now. 14 degrees to be exact. We got a bit of snow but nothing much. Im soooo glad its Thursday and that tomorrow is payday! YAY! Mr. Gaunt and I have plans to get our tree tomorrow night and go see A Christmas Carol 3D, Im pretty excited, never seen a movie in 3D before. Saturday were gonna go to the museum with a friend and then Sunday hopefully I can do a bit of Christmas shopping. We are by no means going crazy this year with gifts, so I really dont have much to do.

Today I came home a little early and had great plans to make a Thai Coconut Shrimp soup recipe that I had copied out of a book weeks ago. Of course when I got home I couldnt find the recipe anywhere…grr! So I looked up a few online and finally ended up just dumping a bunch of stuff into a pot and praying it was yummy.

Mr. Gaunt liked it a lot, and I thought it wasnt too bad. I wish I had had more vegetables to put in but I didnt.  The basic jist of it is:

1 can of light coconut milk

1 can of broth

2 cups shrimp

1 Green Pepper

1 Red Pepper

1/2 an onion

Cooked Brown Rice

Peanut Sauce

Chilli Flakes

Garlic salt

fish sauce.

Dump all into a pot and simmer. Yup thats pretty much it. I would not follow that recipe to a T by any means, google a good one and go off that, but it goes to show that you can make soup from pretty much anything. And its not too bad for you either!

New Pants, New Shirts

Umm It’s still snowing. Yup we are going on two days of non stop snow. I skipped work today because my car was plowed in. Anyways Mr. Gaunt and I left the house for a short while (dont worry the roads are pretty clear) to get some last-minute Halloween costume pieces and to hit up Goodwill to see if we can find some long sleeve shirts (all of mine are too big) and maybe some snow boots. Anyways the boots were a bust but I got some shirts! Oh and today I wore a size smaller in pants! These are pants Kelli gave me, and they fit now, yay yay yay! I never even wore this size in highschool! Im actually looking forward to weigh in on Saturday.


Hula and I all warm in the house



New sweater $2.99



Side view...hmm does my butt look rounder?


Green Shirt $3.99


Mr. Gaunt Sweeping off my trunk


Me trying to unbury my drivers door!

Soup and Snow

I’m on my soup kick, so last night I tried a low fat version of the Olive Garden’s Zuppa Toscana. This is my favorite soup when I do that whole Soup Salad and Breadsticks deals, but Im SURE its full of fat and sodium two things I don’t need to partake in. So anyways I decided to make my own version!


-One Quart FAT FREE Half and Half

-3 cups Low Sodium Vegetable Broth

-1 Large bunch of chopped Kale (I think like 4 or 5 cups worth)

– 3 Medium Yellow Potatoes

-1 Medium onion Diced

-1-2 Cups Sliced Turkey Sausage or Ground Turkey Sausage

-1-2 table spoons of Red Pepper Flakes

-Salt and Pepper

-1 Teaspoon Minced Garlic

-1 Tablespoon Olive oil


-In a medium frying pan saute olive oil, garlic, onions and sausage.

DSC05055-Meanwhile wash and slice yellow potatoes (skins still on) and roughly chop Kale. Place chopped kale into a large soup pot with the Vegetable broth, bring to a simmer and cover.



-When kale is limp, add the sauteed onion and sausage mixture to the kale and broth in the pot. Add all the half and half, bring to a boil. Add sliced potatoes, red pepper flakes, bring to a simmer and cover.

DSC05063The sausage I used was an apple turkey sausage so my soup was a little sweet at first. To salt-en it up a bit I added about a tablespoon of salt (start with a little at a time) and a good few shakes of Worcestershire sauce. Add more or less red pepper flakes depending how spicy you like.

Let the whole thing simmer for about 1/2 hour or until potatoes are soft but not mush.



This soup is soooo yummy! And it tasted like a rich cream soup only its fat free cream! Holla! Oh and it was even better on day two with the snow we have falling right now!