A little Flustered and Obsessed

Im feeling overwhelmed with my body right now. Im so focused on losing weight right now I feel like its all I can think about, I think about every meal, grocery shopping, working out all day long. I think about how much Ive eaten and freak out if I dont have a shit right away, I weigh myself over and over. But Im lost a little, I feel like I want to be healthy and natural, I want to be someone who looks at food as fuel and not as pleasure.  Its really hard though, if not just for will power but also dealing with friends and family who don’t understand why you don’t want to eat meat and cheese, alcohol, coffee etc. Im also getting so many mixed messages about how I should be eating, Weight Watchers is all about portion control and convince with of course a healthy lean, but they focus a lot on diet foods which often have lots of chemical artificial ingredients. And then I read Skinny Bitch which basically says don’t put ANYTHING in your mouth unless you grew it and pulled it out of the ground yourself! So where do I fit in? How do I find my eating plan? And whats the most important thing, being healthy, losing weight (yeah I think this one) being organic and natural?  I havent been sleeping well so Im gonna try to go lay down…tomorrows another day.

A Day at The Pool

Mr.Gaunt and I spent the day at the pool with some friends (and one very cute little boy) swimming and even having a little cotton candy (shhh don’t tell the Vegan Fairies).

Mr. Gaunt and I swimming

Mr. Gaunt and I swimming

Big Feet!

Big Feet!

Cutie Pie Liam!

Cutie Pie Liam!

Grabbing Honkers

Grabbing Honkers

Cotton Candy...we asked for a small dont worry.

Cotton Candy...we asked for a small dont worry.

Pool at Sunset

Pool at Sunset

I feel like my body has jumped into overdrive this week after vacation. I was really worried about a weight gain but that doesn’t seem to be the case. I’m on day two of no meat (or eggs or fish) but have still done a small amount of cheese and yogurt (I love some organic fat free vanilla yogurt) I feel like I may need to watch my calorie intake because cutting out lots of fatty foods may mean I’m not getting all my WW points in for the day which they say is really important.  I dont want to be putting myself into any kind of starvation mode or anything, not that I couldn’t live off my ass fat for a while..ha! Weigh in on Tuesday morning wish me luck!