The house is slowly but surely getting packed up.
I had my last therapy session yesterday. Paul (my therapist) has shown much concern over my recent struggles with depression and self-hatred. We have been working on things that can help me cope. With the move coming, we made plans for how I will continue my therapy in Washington.
Paul thinks I should find a personal counselor in Washington. This of course depends on budget and such, but I may look into it. We talked a bit about how excited I was about all the new stuff that will be going on in our lives, and Paul says:
“You Know, you will be taking MORGAN to Washington too”
Meaning, it might look different, and feel different, but in the end, I am still me, and me and all my troubles will be traveling with us. Despite the initial excitement of change, I will have to face the fact that Washington will not cure me. That I am someone who struggles with my emotions and that I will need to watch myself. I will need to make honest efforts to change my behavior and my mood.
There are two BIG things that I am planning on working on.
1. Physical Fitness.
2. Social Interactions
I have struggled for years with both of these things, but I am genuinely committed to changing my patterns. It is whats best for me and whats best for my relationship. So despite the uncomfortableness of both of those things, they are important. That’s about all I have to say about that for now.
In house news, we found out that our new lanlords are doing a smidge of remodeling to our little house! There are whispers of new bathtubs, and re-finished wood floors….eeek!
Mr. Gaunt and I are going to pick out paint colors before I leave so we can make sure furniture doesnt clash. I plan to do all the painting in the month we are apart, but I wont have our furniture to compare it to, so we brought swatches home.
The hard thing with paint is that I currently LOVE our paint colors, but I MUST have change. Seriously. I’m just that kind of person, I need a fresh start. So that eliminates ALL grey-blue/periwinkles…buh bye. I love grey though, so I am switching it up a bit and doing warmer Grey…what the design world likes to call…
I’m also doing a super fun Peach laundry room/mud room, and a mustard in the bedroom! I know…color me crazy! I’m pretty stoked! Pictures for your inspiring mind:
That last one is just my dream wedding cake, it just happens to be in my color scheme too. We also sold enough unwanted furniture to get some new items! I’m excited to find some new (used) stuff! Mom and I will need to do some thrifting!