A little Flustered and Obsessed

Im feeling overwhelmed with my body right now. Im so focused on losing weight right now I feel like its all I can think about, I think about every meal, grocery shopping, working out all day long. I think about how much Ive eaten and freak out if I dont have a shit right away, I weigh myself over and over. But Im lost a little, I feel like I want to be healthy and natural, I want to be someone who looks at food as fuel and not as pleasure.  Its really hard though, if not just for will power but also dealing with friends and family who don’t understand why you don’t want to eat meat and cheese, alcohol, coffee etc. Im also getting so many mixed messages about how I should be eating, Weight Watchers is all about portion control and convince with of course a healthy lean, but they focus a lot on diet foods which often have lots of chemical artificial ingredients. And then I read Skinny Bitch which basically says don’t put ANYTHING in your mouth unless you grew it and pulled it out of the ground yourself! So where do I fit in? How do I find my eating plan? And whats the most important thing, being healthy, losing weight (yeah I think this one) being organic and natural?  I havent been sleeping well so Im gonna try to go lay down…tomorrows another day.