Hello Luvah

Betcha wonder where I’ve been. Well I’ve been working 9 hour shifts starting at 5am! Yup 5am! How fun is that! And since I live between 30-45 minutes from where I work, that means I wake up at 3:30 am! Ha! So yeah, I’ve been going to bed at like 8:30 so I don’t die on my drive to work. Sigh, only one more week of this. I actually have plans to show y’all what I do at work with PICTURES..YAY! but not now. For now I’m enjoying my friday (which started at 9:30 am…the only perk of working long days with a far drive is short Fridays!) so far I took my phone to Verizon because it’s having a weird problem. Of course weird problem wouldn’t do its weird thing when I got there so they really couldn’t do anything for me. Then I got coffee and talked to Mr. Gaunt who is en route to New Mexico for the weekend to visit a friend. Then I had a long talk with my BFF Mallory on the phone about…oh…Life, Love, Babies, God, Religion, Therapy…you know, the usual. Mallory is my dearest friend and the older we get the more we have in common, and although we have been friends since kindergarten, I think age and space had brought us closer…I heart her.

Oh and I lost 1.6 pounds at weigh in on Monday! Go me!

Anyways today I have lovely plans to go to Old Navy because all their jeans are on sale for $19 and I DESERVE new jeans. Right now I’m floating between a 14 and a 16. This sucks, but I have to stop waiting to get smaller, I have to live in the now. I was talking to Kelli the other night about weight loss, she is a bit smaller than me (that slut!) but she seems to be having just as hard of a time accepting her now smaller frame. It really got me thinking, and although I REALLY want to wear a size 10 and I REALLY want to weigh 160, I’m going to live it up here in a size 15! I have worked my butt off and I deserve to be happy and content! I can not keep waiting for the future, I need to appreciate this. If you had asked me a year ago if I could drop 75lbs and 4 pants sizes over night, I would have kissed your face and laid down dead! It would have been the most amazing thing in the world. But since it DIDNT happen over night, it doesn’t feel quite as amazing. This will change today!

Whitney Thompson is ANTM winner season 10, and she’s a 14 and she’s freaking GORGEOUS! Maybe I don’t look too bad either.

Ok moving on from all of that. Im going to scrapbook a bit today, and watch some Big Love and maybe call Ms. G and get some dinner. Im going to enjoy my solo weekend and do things I might not do when Mr. Gaunt is home. It will be a good weekend.

Oh and before I go, I leave you with a list of a few new favorite links (they are also added under BLOGS! tab) enjoy!

Waste Not Thy hour:

-The Clean Eating Mamma (My new role model for sure!)

-Wedding Gawker (by Food Gawker)

-Hello Veggie (Vegetable Love)

-Some Girls Wander (Fashion by The Black Apple)

-Bitch Cakes Commutes (Bitch Cakes Blog about NY commuting)

The Good, The Bad, The Sugar

I’m in a sour mood. Its Saturday and I have nothing going on in my life, nothing. The last few weeks I feel like seasonal depression has taken over. I feel super blah. I have nothing to do, nowhere to go, no one to hang out with. I’m super poor, which is more of a permanent thing, I don’t make enough money and I don’t know how I can make more. I have little to no motivation to craft or clean or do anything. I miss my friends back home, I miss my mom. I want something new to happen. My weight loss is sucking, I feel like I can’t even go out to eat without gaining five pounds, not that I could afford to even if I wanted to. I wish it was summer. I wish my trip home was sooner. I wish I was still losing weight. I wish I wasn’t so pitiful. Today is a crappy day. Don’t worry, I’ll get over it.

I made this my Desktop picture! I LOVE V-DAY!

Ok I was about to post this and then I figured I should snap out of it and write a list of good things:

1. It’s almost valentines week! I love valentines day. I’m going to make Mr. Gaunt an AWESOME valentine card.

2. We are going to hopefully get a new kitten this coming weekend. I want to name her Olive, Mr. Gaunt does not.

4. It is 46 days till I go to Washington to Celebrate my Mom and Friend Rita’s Birthday!

5. This morning I was at my lowest weight yet.

6. My house is only kind of dirty, not too dirty.

7. Im going to make an indian shrimp dish for dinner.

8. We are going to Costco. Hopefully before 5 so I can snack on samples. Samples don’t count.

9. I found a place to get Mr. Gaunt’s Valentine gift. I just have to wait until friday when I get paid.

10. I talked to my mom, Kelli, and Pro today which is very nice.

11. I organized all of my photo folders on my desktop today.

12. Im going to make No Pudge Brownies shaped like hearts for V-day. I also want to make lemon bars from scratch, died pink.