None of my Pants Fit

This morning I tried on 3 pairs of pants and promptly ripped them off my body! YUCK!

None of my pants fit. And I’m being that dumb vain girl and REFUSING to go up a size.

My “1 Month Post Wedding Eat-A-Thon” is FREAKING DONE!

Yuck.

This morning I had a Lean Pocket, and apple and an Iced SKINNY Vanilla Latte for Breakfast.

I will just be so so so sad if I gain anymore weight. So I started tracking my food on Spark People again. Keeping it under 1400 calories. And at 4:30 I’m going to do my 3.5 mile walk/jog that I mapped out last week. We have a Baptism and TWO weddings (one of them I’m the Maid Of Honor) in the next 5 months, and I don’t want to look like crap in any of them.

My dreams of being a size 10 are long gone though. I’m ok being this size, but the SMALL end of this size, not the BIG end. I like my pants to fit lose, not tight. So if you see me around town eating Man Pies, or Mallards, or Bagelry, or the Creperie, Kick me in the shin and say “MORGAN DO NOT EAT THAT, GO WORK OUT!”

So that’s that.

I posted these on ForTheLoveOfSkinny’s Facebook page, but I will share them here too to keep me (us) motivated!

The Dark and Short

When it starts getting dark at 5pm, my days seem to vanish, cut in half. All summer I was running on such little sleep in order to give myself as much day as I could. I would wake up at 6:30 and wouldn’t go to bed till 1am. Then daylight lasted from 6am to 10pm, it felt like the days went on forever, and even still I felt I needed more time. Now Its dark when I wake up, and dark 2 hours after I get home for work, the days are teeny tiny. We are also on a slightly different schedule, as Mr. Gaunt now works at 5am, so we have to be in bed eyes shut by 10pm. Between 4 and 10 I feel like we GO GO GO.

Yesterday I came home and immediately went into the kitchen to bake¬† a pumpkin cake (because I’m crazy…shhh!. Once the cake was in the oven I sat on the couch for another hour finishing a painting that has to ship out today. By 5:45 the cake was cooling and I whipped up some cream cheese frosting (cause I’m god damn Martha Stewart…duh!), changed out of my work clothes, and by 6 we were in the car going to our friends house for dinner (and movie, and invitation making). We got home at 9pm, I spent 30 minutes on the computer, then to bed. It was actually a great evening, and we love doing things like that, but I often feel like every day of the week is similar in busyness, its hard to find balance.

This morning I woke with some anxiety, which after searching my brain

side note: Does anyone else do this? When you feel stress or anxiety but aren’t sure where it comes from, you run through all the things going on in your life until you feel that PANG. Then you know whats causing it.

I determined it was a mix of money, and my job. Money because I have to take a TON of time off (unpaid) in the next few months (4 weeks off to be exact) and I worry that the coattails of wedding funds will be gone and we will be very sad folks. Also because we are switching from a big bank (booo) to a credit Union (yay!) and we got our first credit card (Yay & Boo), but we still havent finished moving all (like there’s a whole bunch…lol!) our money over and closing our accounts. So I feel like we are in banking limbo, and that is scary…ugg. But when the stupid banks all close by 6pm WHEN ARE PEOPLE SUPPOSE TO DO THAT SORT OF THING! I wish banks were open from 6am to 10pm so people could get off work and do banking things, lordy.

As for my job (are you guys sick of me bitching about one shitty job after another for the last 3 years yet? Yeah, me neither.) Its lame, and it pays nothing, and I have ZERO benefits because technically I’m still seasonal, and now they are making me take 5 unpaid weeks off before the end of January. On top of that, it’s just super boring, which I don’t do well with.

Sooooooooo

I have a plan. A business plan! A plan to start my own business doing something I’m good at, and something that’s not too hard. It’s a plan that could maybe be a full-time gig for me, that MAYBEEEEE could even be a full time family gig! That would give me (and my man friend) my own schedule, and wouldn’t cost a million dollars to start-up (except we kind of need a van…of the mini variety). But I’m lazy, and I get scared with business politics, and I’m bad with money, and I worry too much. How could I ever function? I know my mom and Mr. Gaunt will help too, but they are both busy with their own jobs, neither of them feel the DIRE NEED to do something better with their lives (well they do, but not as much as me). So far I have a business name, a logo, a plan, and a lot of ideas and lists. What I need is a business license, a van, a bank account, a website, supplies, brochures, uniforms, and a gig. Which is overwhelming when you have a full-time job, a part-time painting job, and a life cat!

But I NEED it to happen! So I’m just going to wing it. I’m going to go get the things I can get (no van for me…):) and piece together the rest!

Oh! Maybe YOU can help. What is another word for “Execution” or “Executor” in the “get something done” meaning, not the “kill someone” meaning?

So I feel better, blogging always helps me sort out my thoughts a bit. And I’m sooo excited to FINALLY make my bridal shower Thank You Cards tonight and Mr. Gaunt is changing his alternator tonight (the shop quoted him $600…psh! No way) So him and his friend Greg (who helped him change his starter) checked the book out at the Library and are gonna give it a go. I’m so proud of him for attempting to learn these things, and I’m glad he has Greg to help him feel more comfortable under the hood of a car.

Alright. I also NEED some new music! I would love you lots if you would post at least 1 or 2 of your favorite songs at the moment in the comments!

Summer Running, Had me a Blast…

I totally forgot today is the first day of SUMMAH!

Mr. Gaunt and I sat down this morning and wrote down all (or most) of the music for the wedding, as well as mapped out the timeline. Exciting stuff, I know. Then it got late (10am) and we still hadn’t worked out. Mr. Gaunt was actually icing his knee that has ben bugging him. For a minute we discussed not working out and just doing our errands for the day. But with my new work schedule being TEN HOURS of sitting down, I knew that skiing my workout would be a bad idea. So I left Mr. Gaunt at home and went running. I had already decided to just do 30 minutes, and to try to run as much of that as I could. Then I decided right after I started running that I would just shoot for two miles (previously I have only done 1.5 without stopping). Sure enough I got on a good pace and jogged a whole TWO MILES! Woop Woop! I’m sure people driving past are shocked at my ability to jog so slowly, but my heart stay beating hard the whole time, so its good enough for me!

via Gmaps Pedometer (the greatest workout tool EVER!)

Mr. Gaunt and I have to go to Michael’s today to get stuff to make our groomsmen boutonnieres! I’m actually very excited about this little project, as we are doing something very non-traditional, but very cute!

But first…cofffee…iced…20 oz…drooooool….

Mission Complete!

I totally jogged a 1/2 mile without stopping! Go me!

I actually jogged MOST of the first 2 miles. Then I got really tired and walked the last mile and a 1/2.

I read somewhere that when running your suppose to breathe through your nose not your mouth. I gave it a shot and thought I was going to DIE! I do not get enough oxygen through my nose. I will continue with my mouth breathing running…lol.

So I’m going to stick with my 1/2 mile jog for the week, then maybe move up to 3/4 mile next week. I’m going to get a pedometer this weekend too.

Happy Tuesday! Oh and this week I am doubling my strength training and adding 100 crunches. Anyone else pushing themselves this week?

 

The First Distance Challenge

Mr. Gaunt and I promised each other to PUSH ourselves this week. So tomorrow we are going to attempt a 1/2 mile of jogging without stopping. I know, I know, that seems crazy short, but we are NOT joggers. Not at all. At this point I can jog about 1/4 mile without stopping. Then I walk a little then I jog more. Its the NOT stopping thing that I wish I could do.

Our current workout routine is really nice, we do UP and DOWN 6 “blocks” (which is actually 6 lengths of 6 blocks each). Each “block” is about a 1/2 mile. So tomorrow we are going to attempt one length. We will see where we get. Tomorrow its suppose to be a little cooler so we wont die. I guess as the weather gets hotter we just have to workout earlier.

Anyways wish me luck! Ill have an update for you tomorrow afternoon.

Now That Its June We’ll Sleep Out in The Garden

Happy June!!!!

June to me has always marked the start of Summer! And I am so ready for this summer!

June also marks my 6th month of not smoking (cold turkey thankyouverymuch)….GO ME!!!

June 1st means that in 114 days I will be MRS. GAUNT!

And in 102 days I will be 26 years old!

June marks the summer that I will lose the last of my Overweightness.

The summer that I will get in shape, and *gasp* become a runner?

June means suntans, sangria, and River floating.

And this song. Which is so near and dear to my heart that I really have no words to express how I feel about it. Just love:

JUNE 1st is also NATIONAL RUNNING DAY!

To celebrate Mr. Gaunt and I got up and did a 5k this morning. Mr. Gaunt ran along side me which was awesome! It still took us about 50 minutes, but we did do more long distance running, less breaks. I just need to focus on continuing running through the whole thing.

NOW ITS TIME FOR JUNE WEIGH IN!

I woke up this morning to the (once hidden) scale sitting in the hallway. I peed, stripped down and weighed myself. The end result was exactly 14 pounds lost! I was shooting for 15 pounds, but who am I to complain. I had to lose 14 pounds in 41 days , 4 pounds in 12 of those days.¬† I’m pretty pleased.

Now I have to lose 10 pounds in June. If we break it down I need to lose a little less than 2.5 pounds a week. Eeek! I’m going to stick with only weighing myself once a week to keep my sanity. I’ll probably make Fridays weigh in days. Which means this friday will be “the little extra bonus weight” I get before my 4 weeks actually starts.

Workout goal = 6 days a week of walking 2-5 miles. 7 days a week of mini-workouts. Speaking of, don’t forget to do Wednesdays!

Mr. Gaunt and I are off to the wedding rental place today to rent silverware, napkins, and a few other things. And to pay for our cake we ordered yesterday!!! So exciting!